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Balcony Thoughts

So I'm here in Florida out on the balcony listening to the second disc of Gone To Earth on the laptop and trying to ignore the blasts of chainsaw noise that are firing off at irregular intervals. The sky is a cloud-streaked pale blue and sun is fading in and out of view.

I've been sitting out on this balcony accompanied by David Sylvian on the headphones every summer (with a few exceptions) for more years than I can think to count. (Ever since I first obtained the album, taped it and took it with me.) The sounds of that album are forever tangled in my mind with the summer sky and the smell of the ocean. It's become a very grounding album for me, because this trip to the beach is the one time during the year where I can relax without any distractions and assess the state of my life. My diary entries around this time tend to be very introspective and full of plans to conquer the world upon my return.

I've come to the last few pages of my current diary (I have a fresh blank book waiting in the wings) and I read over it, as I think I mentioned previously. It covers about three years of time in intermittent entries. It starts not long after economic circumstances forced me back into my parents' domicile and, on a good note, it ends with me purchasing a condominum and preparing to move out. Three flipping years of spinning my wheels. Where did the time go?

Well, it went to working at Borders and obtaining a paralegal certificate. So it's not like the time went completely down the toilet. And it went to getting the job I have now, which is one of the grooviest jobs I've ever had, and it looks to be a hell of a lot more stable than the #1 grooviest job I ever had.

For the first time in a long time I feel like I'm actually getting somewhere. And this time I feel more securely grounded than I ever have in my entire life. Which, I think, is a good place to start conquering the world from.

Today I took pleasure in sitting out on the balcony and letting the breezes caress my skin.

Today I learned a little bit about Robert Hooke, who was a scientific rival of Isaac Newton.


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Jul. 26th, 2006 11:11 pm (UTC)
Aw, thanks!

And thanks for the lovely dose of Sylvian iconage. :) I should really make one for myself sometime . . .
Jul. 26th, 2006 11:25 pm (UTC)
conquering the world

in red glitter boas oh yeah.
Jul. 27th, 2006 08:21 am (UTC)
Congratulations for your accomplishments! It put a smile on my face to read your entry. :)
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