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A late-year resolution . . .

So I had a long chat with the paper journal about the lingering feelings I'm still churning through over Mr. TBH (I've spared you fine people the details, because I'm sure you're all sick to death of hearing about it. God knows, I'm sick to death of writing about it.)

Anyway, when I hit the paper journal, I went ahead and let it all out, even the parts I didn't want to admit to myself, dragging out my irrational feelings into the light, gaining some insight into why I was still clinging on to these things.

And, as often happens when I do this, the wiser part of my mind emerged like Hope at the bottom of Pandora's Box.

This is how I concluded the entry:

Stop playing the role of the Tragic Clingy Ex.
Start playing the role of The One That Got Away.

I feel better already.

Today (so far) I took pleasure in having that mental crap flushed from my system.

Today I learned um, well, I'm only about fifteen minutes into the day, so I'll have to get back to you on that one . . .


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Feb. 28th, 2008 08:57 pm (UTC)
That sounds great. I ought to learn how to flush mental crap from my system too!
Feb. 28th, 2008 11:17 pm (UTC)
My technique is just to write and write and write until it's all out of me. When I feel better, I know I'm finished.

I even have one book set aside called the Shit Book--it's specifically used as a sort of "toxic waste dump", where I can be as angry, petulant, mean and sulky as I feel like. It's like throwing a tantrum on the page. I rarely reread it, precisely because it's never fun stuff to go back over, but by dumping it there, it means that my other journals can be less tainted with negativity. (Not that I never vent in my regular journals, but the really vicious stuff is kept there.)

The good news is, I haven't needed to use that book much lately! :)
Mar. 2nd, 2008 05:00 am (UTC)
Sounds great!

Do you ever have a ritual Shit Book burning when they get full? That could be cleansing, too.
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